Till There Was You

Begin the day by speaking to you

You are everywhere I can't seem to escape it

Open a book and read about you

Step outside, and find you there too

Try to grasp what you know

But find myself falling

When I begin to think I finally understand

You blow my mind again

At the end of the day I find my self saying

“I wish I understood you”

How can I know you and yet know nothing at all?

Next day all I know, I left you behind.

The book I had read the day before

Is lying closed by my bedroom door

Step outside again, and all I see

Is how the things around relate to me

At the end of this day

I find myself empty and alone

The emptiness inside of me

I listen and inside my head

And thousands of voices drone

Open my door and crash on the bed

Ignoring the ache inside of me

I turn to my door and gaze

Pierced by what I look and see

The book I read is lying there

It hasn’t moved yet seems to stare

Pick it up and begin to read

Inside my heart you’ve planted a seed

Ending the day by speaking to you

You are everywhere I can't seem to escape it

Open the book and read about you

Step outside, and find you there too

Try to grasp what you know

But find myself falling

When I begin to think I finally understand

You blow my mind again

At the end of this day I find my self saying

“I wish I understood you”

- Jessica Angelica

"If You Find Her, Tell Her That I Love Her"

She was head-strong, had a mind of her own. That’s what they all told me. She was pretty, confident in the way she held herself. She had caught my eye. But everyone advised me to stand back, this girl was not going to bend to wishes.No one had ever been able to hold her thus far. She could stand perfectly well on her own.It is told that she had loved once, but the lucky man whom she fancied had not wished to care. Ah, that I had been that man that she had fancied. What made her like him so?

They all said that my catching her was impossible.

No man wanted to attempt it.

For it would ‘cost to much’… ‘you won’t come out alive’.

They said with faces grave.

But I was determined.

To be more than just brave.

In her heart, she had spoke

To many of her friends

She wished that one would love her.

And dare to know her name.

To brave through thick and thin.

One worthy of the fight

For once one proved himself worthy,

She said she’d fall in place.

But only her close friends,

Had been told this in the night

All the while, the boys that wished

Were held in place by fright.

So I declare I’ll be,

The one to give it a try

I know that I’ll succeed

And make her my own bride.

For if she is indeed

A girl with her own mind

I would like to read

What’s hidden I will find.

She broke my heart today,

But I’m not giving up.

She says that she is fine,

And doesn’t need one by her side.

But I have spoken to friends of hers

And know that all the while

She puts up her biggest walls,

To those she loves the most.

She’s changed today

I’ve watched her grow

I know I love her

Ever so.

She’s opened her heart to those she loves

But is afraid still to fall

She says she’s dying for one to try

To pry into her heart

She’s willing to submit now,

To whatever must be done.

She loves her God

And puts her soul

Into his loving hands

She’s learned that

“Mr. Right”

Will somehow understand.

So again I try, but kinder this time round

And to my surprise I know that I have found

She’s wary still, but willing to

Admit her feelings so.

She’s held my hand, she talks to me

And on our way we go.

-Jessica Angelica