No Expectations

(When used in this post Master = Parents, Boss, anyone of higher authority than you. )

I'd much rather serve a master, than do what he told me to do.

Meaning: I'd rather serve, than obey.... if that makes sense...

Hmmm Point of View.

If I'm serving God, then I'm obeying my master. The thing I'm afraid of is failing. When you server someone, you can't fail... because whatever your doing is:

1.Undeserved

or

2. Unexpected

Expectations. That's where the problem comes. I don't want to submit to someone else's expectations because those are fickle and they change on a whim. When you submit it always means you fail. It means you'll never reach the level of your master. That's terrifying to someone with a dominate personality. I aim to achieve. An unachievable goal will have me running in circles, in that case... why even try??

When I'm serving, the 'master' usually is 'pleased' because the control is in my hands. I can do the best and be pleased, knowing that I have given my master my best. Not to have the success of the job taken away. It all comes down to this:

1. I don't trust my master

2. I don't know that he won't be unreasonable

3. I don't know he won't hurt me

4. I don't know that he will protect me

However, I am ultimately not in my 'master's' hands. For there is a higher master, who is pleased at any and all obedience... even if the goal is unreachable, the obedience means a 'servants heart'. I am ultimately serving a God (master) who is:

1. Reasonable (Just, Honest, Remembers we are dust.)

2. Will not give me anything not worth having, (...everything works together for good)

3. Will not hurt me without good reason (Who can question God?)

4. Going to protect me (For Neither height nor depth... can separate us from God's love.)

5. Is pleased. (Therefore, there is now no condemnation)

And because I serve and obey that master, I know that I can trust Him to do all these things while still allowing the earthly master to be fallible.

I can obey my master, not just serve, because I am ultimately serving (meaning there are no expectations) a higher master, who has no expectations because they have been completed through Jesus Christ.

"Servants be subject to your masters with all respect, not only to the good and gentle but also to the unjust. For this is a gracious thing. When, mindful of God, one endures sorrows while suffering unjustly. For what credit is it if, when you sin and are beaten for it, you endure? But when you do good and suffer for it you endure, this is a gracious thing in the sight of God."

(1 Peter 2:18-20)

(speaking of Jesus:)

"When He was reviled, He did not revile in return: When He suffered He did not threaten, but continued trusting Himself to Him who judges justly."

(21)

"Humble yourselves, therefore under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."

(5:6&7)

"Watch This"

Wow....

Oh, the things God's been teaching me lately. Can we say huge "growth spurt"?

Camp was all about contentment... I know I stated that in my previous post, but I think I have time to expound:

I'm not really sure where to start to be honest, so if this post seem like random ramblings... well you know how I write if you follow my blog, sooooo bear with the unfinished sentences, incomplete thoughts, and run-on-sentences. I'll do you a favor and take an English 101 class (later.).

I'm sorta frustrated. Because God's doing exactly what I asked him to. But that's not what's frustrating me, it's frustrating that I am frustrated..... To which, I think I'm frustrated because what I've been asking for is occuring, but I forgot that there's this little thing called "time",I forgot how impatient I am too. So when 'time' came around and said that I needed to wait during transitions... welllllll I got a little frustrated.

I'm going to be very careful in describing what this statement has to do with anything, because ... well I don't want you guys to think I have a big head.

Sometimes I don't feel like I connect, to anyone. Because I, think. And that scares people. People don't want to think, they want to live their life ignoring the pain, ignoring the questions and just kinda .... drift through life. And the Christians? It bugs them when you ask questions too. You're not supposed to be sinful, you're not supposed to ask questions. You're just supposed to believe. I've seen so many friends (and leaders) not ask questions for fear of being condemned.

I've always been bold and asked what I was thinking, and worrying about what other people think later. Sometimes being ignorant is bliss. Let's just put it that way. Because when you are ignorant? You have a lot more friends.

I'm not saying I don't have friends. Oh goodness no, I have a TON of God-fearing friends. But please understand when I say it's lonely, I mean it. It doesn't mean I don't have friends... It just means that sometimes the ones I have don't feel like listening to me rant. (hence the blog hehe)

So yeah. Well that rant had a point in my head... moving on...

Anyways, at camp:

Satisfaction.

Only found in Christ. I know that. It's easy to say, harder to practice. If Jesus is so satisfying, why am I so sad all the time? Because he's not the focus all the time, my priorities get crooked and satisfaction is the farthest thing from my mind. My purpose is to live for Christ, to give him honor in everything.

"I have learned the secret of being content... For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" Philippians 4:11-13

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

Sounds pretty good right?

So I asked God to put Himself first. To have total faith and put God first takes a lot more guts than I anticipated.

I'm falling in love with Jesus, (like it should be) but the pull-away from this earth is hard. God's taking everything I've deemed important and knocking it down to size. That hurts. It's like sitting back and hearing God go "Watch this....." and waiting for results.

This is what I want. I want Jesus to be my all.... it's just, I'm not so sure how He's my 'all', when he kinda took away the ways that I currently (or intended to) serve in.

Just waiting now. Thought you might want to come join me in watching my life. So that's my post.

Short and Sweet.

No, I have not abandoned my blog. This week has been so crazy!!! I went to camp at "Awanita Valley" I learned a *ton* mostly about contentment and satisfaction. But I'll ramble more on that later.

This week I'm turning sixteen!!!!!!

I have friends from out of town and out of the state coming in :) :) I'm so excited!!!! Now just to apply patience.

Have an awesome day fellow bloggers!